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Not in a great place, and apologies

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 21, 2011, 3:12 PM



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Welcome to We Have Rainbows! This is the place that I’m creating and selling my Rainbow Cards series and I hope that there is some artwork here that you love.

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To all my lovely watchers: thank you, and I'm sorry for not being active. I'm sure you all understand that trying to settle in a university is hard, and that I have to really prioritise what I do.

I would love my first journal to have been gushing about how wonderful this university is. It's amazing, the facilities are good, the lecturers are (for the most part) fantastic and I'm involved in some great ensembles. My flatmates are lovely, and I'm very slowly starting to make friends in my classes - four of us have put together a string quartet, which is fun. I will say more on these things at a later time.

But right now I'm not in a good place. I'm in a better place than an hour ago, having had a good long cry on the phone to my parents, but it's still not good. It's the same place I was in when I moved school for sixth form, and I know that I can survive this. I will settle in and sort myself out, given a bit of time. I will improve at my classes. I will start to get the hang of the more complicated moves in capoeira (one of my extra things).

But I don't feel like I will.

Please forgive me my absence. I am still drawing, which is some good news. I'll try to upload some of the things I've done (mostly to Scraps, as they're just studies, but you know. Drawing is good. It's my me-time. My get-away-from-music time.) If you want to talk to me, I'm around enough to engage in conversation - but not enough to necessarily be able to start one. I'm sorry.

I'm awful at asking for help and support. The idea of doing it makes me want to burst into tears. I'm used to doing my best to be independent and dependable, and especially at uni it's hard to not think, "You're a big girl now, you should be able to deal with this." But, if you can spare a thought or a prayer, I'd appreciate it so much. I'll be okay in the end, but in the meantime if feels like I'm not going to be.

The hugs are too far away, for the most part.

Thank you for reading this.

I will try to have more stuff to show you soon. And a happy journal. But my course and looking after myself come first.

I hope that everyone else is healthy, happy and doing well. I do think of you guys.

Love and prayers,
Lutra xx

P.S. I'll update the features next time, okay? Immy and Gabbi, I know I need to feature you. And there are probably a couple of others too.


CSS by *Lutra-Gem
  • Listening to: Grosse Orgelmesse by Haydn
  • Reading: Oxford Music Online
  • Playing: Viola
  • Eating: Actually fairly healthily
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Mood: Caring ~Quina-chan Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist
:( HUG!!!!...WAHHH!!! I never like hearing of a friend who's sad. Thinking of you always
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*Lutra-Gem Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you. :tighthug: I'm already feeling a bit better! Not fantastic, but better. I'm hoping to get the picture finished off tomorrow, so I'll need you address soon so I can post it to you. :heart:
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~Quina-chan Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist
Sure thing I'll send it to you via FB
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Mood: Cheerful ~Quina-chan Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist
I pray you will feel better soon :)
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*Lutra-Gem Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you, darling. :hug:
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Mood: Tender ~Quina-chan Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist
I'm always here for you
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*Lutra-Gem Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know. :heart: Just sometimes Oxford's a little too far away!
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!Setulge Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I seriously wanted to cry at this :icontearplz: I wish I could just fly from LT to you so I could give a real big hug :tighthug: and say something that would make you feel better. So, now you will get many hugs from me:
:tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug::tighthug::tighthug::hug::hug:
STAY STRONG! I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS :icontearplz:
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*Lutra-Gem Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to upset anyone else... I just wanted to apologise for being absent, and swallow my pride and ask for some support. Thank you, I really do appreciate it. I'm already feeling a bit better! I got a really good rest this morning, and I've gotten some useful things done. Not everything I wanted to, but I'm making progress. :hug:
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!Setulge Oct 22, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Don't apologize. You know, I'm very emphatic...:blush: I'm just glad that you are feeling better now :hug:
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